Friday, June 29, 2007

she

Sluggishly she peeps up
from under the warm covers,
her dreams sent to a distant realm
by the beams of sunlight
that compel her to start her day.
Slowly she raises herself
and begins her endless chores
thinking, at each step,
'when will the night,
my endless day, slay?'
her thoughts begin to circle
around her problems
of existance,
trivialities, certainties too,
crowding her mind,
weighing down her spirit.
Shackled to her fate,
she decides to be subservient,
never daring to think
of the golden nectar of freedom.
She is a butterfly,
waiting to break free
from the confines of her cocoon
that smother her,
killing every free vision she sees.
But suddenly
she realises that
her fate, her very destiny
are in her own hands
that they need to be moulded,
shaped like soft clay
under the hands of a skilfull potter.
She, hesitantly,
takes the sword of independence
and strikes one fatal blow
to the manacles, the chains
that weigh her wings down.
Soon she is flying, soaring,
reaching new heights,
securing for herself the glories
that she once was denied.
Slowly the night creeps back,
but she does not heave
a sigh of relief or gratitude.
She wants, now, a new day
she waits for the sunlight
that "compels" her to start her day,
banishing the nightmares from her past
to the dark abyss
where she will never return.

Monday, June 11, 2007

what makes me happy...

In every peer group, there's politics. there's
bitching and backbiting and then turning around
and hiding those fiercely sharp talons under soft
smiles and hollow camaraderie. and it's not just
us girls...the guys are as bad, worse even. they're
brutally competetive. sometimes it led me to
wonder...is it just a fleeting fancy that draws a
group of people together or is there something
deeper?then it all changed. i found a group that was
honest to me, as a person. there was constructive
criticism alongwith an easy manner and a warm
sense of belonging. sure there were moments
when one was singled out for a while, but
mistakes were accepted and time brought us
closer.
This is my core now and i have grown as a
person, as an individual with creative potential.
it's support and wit and the feeling that there's
always something to achieve that makes them
some of the warmest people i know. they help me
with my personal battles that have dented my
armour and keep me laughing when jealousies are
eating me up from the inside.
We write street plays and poems, jingles and one
act plays. we explore all that we have in us.
sharing ambitions, laughing at our own follies,
"crushing on" the same seniors, loving "...long
chats, b'day bumps, bunking classes, fight for
marks, tears for love...".
That sense of belonging and harmony is what i
define as my share of heaven, right here, where i
am!